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April 28, 2014 I create Worlds and live in them. Sometimes I get tired.
My stories come out clear, focussed, on track and on fire. I can’t believe how satisfying my day to day life has become. I am able to keep on a steady creative train and keep it moving slowly and surely. My bodies of work are merging and they feel flesh and blood real to me. I feel peaceful calm every day and nothing is nothing more important to me anymore than my own well being. I know exactly what I have to do. I see my plans, my collaborations, my shots, my images, feel the feelings. I am a blessed artist- a creator of worlds.
As I have since I got sick, I get hit by crippling exhaustion that knocks me right on my back when I push myself. I’m getting better at listening to my Spidey senses and taking care of things before they hit exhaustion and cognitive slippage. Since late last week I was incapacitated, moving from one piece of furniture to another, trying to muster the strength to buy groceries or take my dogs out. I feel like five years later I should be better at managing this, and I have to remember how far I have come. And with a stress disorder my chemicals shoot powerfully and my guidance system when it wants me to stop, it screams at me and knocks me to the ground.
And while this feels like a cruel blessing sometimes, I can’t ignore my inner voice. After trauma I find my inner voice yells. It’s yelling “take exquisite care of yourself” and now I am an overprotective mother to myself, sending myself home to rest when I need.
I was intending to write a bit about my bodies of work, to clarify them for myself but I don’t have it in me today.
I have a few errands to run for Queen of the Parade 2014, my next installation that will be at ARTRageous In Motion Fundraiser in Toronto in two days. Tomorrow I have marked a day of rest and recharging my batteries in preparation.
Off to take care of myself and make final preparations
Cheerios and love
Lisa Anita Wegner
Tags: ArtRageous, Daniels Spectrum, Forever Epic Films, lisa anita wegner, Longbranch Design, partners in art, PIA, ptsd, Queen of the Parade, Vanessa Lee Wishart
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